I'm feeling a little like Charlie Brown today. You know how Lucy would hold the football for him to kick and then pull the ball at the last second so Charlie would kick at nothing but air and end up flat on his back? Yes, that describes it exactly.
These last couple of years have been rough financially. Being a self-employed general contractor when no one is building is a tough road. God has been faithful throughout it all, providing enough work that we are still hanging in there. It is most definitely a faith-building experience though, let me tell you. We have learned to keep to a tight budget, watch every penny, and constantly remind ourselves that God's got our back.
After two years of this, I am growing a bit battle-weary.
Today we got word that a very big job -- a job that would have brought us through the winter and then some -- that was supposed to be a "done deal" was not as done as we thought. There goes the ball and here we are laying flat on our backs like Charlie Brown.
The weary part of me wants to throw a two-year-old, kicking-and-screaming, it's-not-fair tantrum. I must admit, I did a little of that.
*deep breath* The still small voice of God whispers -- if I will just stop flailing my arms and complaining long enough -- I AM still in control.
I don't know what God is going to do here and I hate not knowing. I do know this though: His Word promises over and over and over and over and over again that he will be faithful to His children. I am His child, as is my hard-working husband.
"And my God will supply all your needs according to your glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:33-34
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
And these are just the ones off the top of my head. They tell me that God is in control and He's got my back. My life may not work out in the way that I have planned or in a way I even understand, but I trust that God can see the big picture and is ultimately working for my good.
So in faith I will get up off the ground, dust myself off and trust that the next time that we kick for that ball -- even if I still end up flat on my back -- God is still in control.
My favorite verse Hebrews 10:23
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess for he who promosed is faithful
<3 you my friend
and you know how I feel about tantrums....I think we are entitled to them every once and awhile.
Posted by: shan | September 06, 2011 at 11:08 AM